JUST MY THOUGHTS....

Last night I watched television, made dinner, cleaned the kitchen and finished reading the...

Wait a minute. That's exactly what I did on the night before last! Sweet merciful crap! My life has become a recursive loop of eating, cleaning, watching TV and finishing half-read novels! It's like something out of a bad episode of Dr Who... which is ironic, since I was watching bad episodes of Dr Who earlier!

It seems so weird that I can pick up friends so well. The ones I want to keep are always too busy for me, but the ones I can't stand, are the ones whom I can't get rid of. It seems like such a theme in my life, even in my relationships. I suppose that I can't pick my friends, which means that I'm doomed to a life of loneliness (something that I believe I've already come to terms with), except for one sweet guy, whom I can have a great time with. I mean, I have some of the most messed up relationships ever.

Being alone makes things so much simpler....my life is less complex when I think about it. It's quite a good feeling to not be dependent on anything. One would have the freedom to commit suicide without worrying about anyone caring. One has no responsibilities to anyone....

Oh well,another shitty day is almost over. Time for bed...let's hope for a better day tomorrow....